3 Too Many

“We need the dark places to show us the light no matter how dim is always there.“

Happy Birthday Susan!! Hope you have an awesomely wonderful day getting spoilt rotten.

How sad that this is what my life has become! Talking to dead people, well making cups of tea for them anyway.it seems that the new drugs are messing why New big time, and also the tumors are having there wicked way with me. Oh and don’t forget the steroids having their piece of me. The new drugs seem to be mellowing me out before bed and keeping me awake. Then when I do manage to get into the sleep zone, I am then treated to the asteroid effects so are waking with the head that’s is messed up with. During the waking hours I am subjected to random sleep/blackout spells which I don’t usually even know it’s happening to me. I just go out to it like a light so sorry if I go of when talking to you, I honestly don’t know where to start to explain what it’s like having this happen to you. My head it’s sliced and diced too as when I was shaving my ugly bald head yesterday it is not advisable to have either tremors or this passing out thing as the blades still cut deeply and very well when you shudder or jolt. So I think the boys will get to be on head shaving duty from now on. I did that we’ll enough that Jacob panicked when he saw me as I had that much blood pooled around my neck that he thought I had did something serious to myself.

It is going to be a short ramble today though as I’ve done nothing except fight the drop of monster all day. Started the day with presents and cards,for Sue. Then up and into the day. Having a better day than yesterday thank goodness. Good but very restless morning at work then head of at 12:15 as I have an appointment at 12:30. All goes well and get home. Resist the urge to sleep and keep plodding through the day. Mum pays a visit and has a great catch up. Cook a simple dinner as that is all that is asked for so oblige.

Jenny comes over for a visit and a catch up. Sorry I missed you Jen, sleep monster has the better of me. Wake about 9:30 then and needing to sleep more. Rattle out a quick blog as there is nothing to really report. So M&D time – 9 drugs today. Then bed. Hope all have had a great day and loads of fun. Take care all.

Kia Kaha.