3 Too Many

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that.” – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Joh – well done on surviving and enjoying 2 years in Skippy land.  Long as you don’t pick up the twang So you’ll become a Kaussie (Kiwi Aussie) soon?  Time has flown by.

Very early start today as the Aussie visitors are leaving this morning and need to be at the airport at 5:30am.  Get up to say good byes, take pain killers, and then head back to bed as head is pounding and body aching all over.  Nice to know that the Chemo is at work in a way.  Wake then about 7 and decide more pain killers are needed.  Go back to bed then and get up then about 9am.  Head is still in a bad state and it is hurting just to move around.  Head for the next level pain killers.  They take their time working   Starting to feel sick now too – bloody hell in for one of these crappy days.  Aches and pains, etc all ease up so I go and do 15mins on the spin bike.  Feel much better for doing some exercise.  Get ready then to face the day.

Login to work – sorry it was late today, but I am there now   Dad then comes over for a visit and to show off his latest purchases from the auctions.  Stop cringing Joh!  Get on with some more work.  The boys then nag me about it been lunch time, so Lachlan gets me one of my liquid drinks and the lads get their own meals.  Lachlan then heads off to Josh’s house for a visit.  Jacob arranges to go to Brad’s for the night.  I plan to stay home   Quiet arvo then fighting fatigue and loading up on pain killers as body and head hurting constantly, and trying to do work.

Had a call from my Speech Therapist today (they also look after your eating/chewing/swallowing, etc) to check up on how I am going with thinsg, and how my new fandangled liquid food is going as my Dietitian had been in touch with her.  They have an obession, it seems, that I can’t swallow as my mouth is sore.  I explained several times that there is no pain in my mouth or throat and that my notes need to be changed to say that.  After repeating that several times she finally got the idea.  Hopefully it is now duly noted.  It is amazing how many different people now have my health as their concern – I have my Doctor, my Chemist, Chemo Doctor, Radiation Doctor, Dietican, Speech Therapist, Neurosurgeon, and Neurologist.  Thank goodness I don’t have to pay for all of them!!

 Have found myself emotionally flip flopping today.  Feel good and happy for a bit, then suddenly feel low and flat.  Felt really flat and depressed just after lunch time with no logical reason for it.  I hate it when I have days like this.  It seems that everything is happening to test your resolve.  There is nothing that I’m aware of that is making me feel up and down.  Maybe it is just because I’m hurting then not then hurting again, and the same with the nausea good and bad.  It really is a great way to live and can recommend it to all – NOT!!  I recieved my liquid meals yesterday – Vanilla, Banana, Chocolate and Caramel – so I can choose what to have for each meal so to speak.  But today the real medication arrived – a dozen mixed wines and a bottle of Knob Creek bourbon.  Real medicene.

Quiet evening.  Not up to eating dinner as sitting here reaching, meaning I have not eaten any food today.  The liquid is even not sitting very well.  No wonder early on when I piled on the kilos they were telling me not to worry.  It’s because the further into treatment you go the more you loose. I was thinking of going to footy tonight for a run around but I’m already hurting to much and think better of it.  I’ll save myself for the Masters this weekend instead.  Hope you’ve all survived hump day and are now ready for the down hill run into the weekend.  Take care and  “You all come back real soon, ya hear.”

Kia Kaha.