3 Too Many

“When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.” – Unknown

Another day, same old.  Restless, broken sleep with the usual pains and nausea.  Also feeling on an emotional low today too.  Haven’t been like this for a while but still I guess this is the new norm really, it is following the same pattern as with the last round of treatment. If it follows true to form then next week will improve just in time to start the next round of Chemo.  Oh well I guess I will start to mentally prepare for that round next week, in reality I have got through the last lot better than I thought so are happy. I think the increase in exercise has helped hugely as feel better physically and mentally.  Probably not eating properly due to the nausea is not helping things either as it means I’m tiring more easily.  It is a bit of a vicious circle really in that I can’t eat cause I feel sick, and I am in pain because I need food to keep the body ticking over, and have to eat too so I can take some of my drugs so force feed myself then sit miserably while fighting to keep it down.  Of course then you end up with days like today on an emotional low, but put on a smiley face to the world as you can’t be bothered with the questions – not saying that there will be many but just in case – it’s up with the happy shield. 

Get ready for work and off to the office.  Good day at work, and see a few familiar faces – Gareth Codd, Fred Tullet, and Paul Thompson – from other sites (but have worked with perviously) as they are there for an Editorial meeting.  Great to see them all.  Have Google Apps training too as we are moving to that platform next week.  Walk home at about 2:15.  Probably not the best idea really as I am already hurting and haven’t really eaten anything so running on empty.  Still make it home but absolutely exhausted.

Have a little lay down in the sun and doze off – get woken 2 1/2 hours later, aching all over.  Have a codeine and a couple of Panadol which take some of the edge off but still feel lousy really.  Start on the blog, then some how lose it all – gggrrrr!!! Bloody computers.  Sue and Lachlan head off to watch Sacred Heart (Lachie’s school) compete in the final of the Primary Schools Basketball competition.  Jacob stays home to take care of me.  Have a lovely chat with him about things.  Enjoying having one on one time with the boys when I can, as they are times I have now learnt to value.  Sue and Lachie return, and tell us how exciting the game was with Sacred Heart coming away victorious, winning 17-16.  Congrats to the Sacred Heart team.

Dinner time – well for everyone else.  My stomach is objecting to the thoughts of food so I am delaying having anything still.  Get most of the blog done, again.  This time-saving it as I go – and making sure it is saving this time.  Watch the Block and then some more crappy tv, while checking out the price of cemetery plots.  Hell they are not cheap!!  Decided where I want to have my last piece of land, so going to look at reserving it.  One more thing less to worry about then.  M&D time then off to bed to read – like a naughty child going to bed without dinner as still haven’t eaten.  Even with the arvo nap, I am still very tired.  Take care all.  Catch you tomorrow, hopefully after a better day.

Kia Kaha.