3 Too Many

“Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticise me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you.” – William Arthur Ward

“A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities.” – William Arthur Ward

“When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.” – Unknown

I know 3 quotes – but I like them all and think there is some relevance to todays ramblings.  Take what you can/want from them but I know I enjoy them.

Interesting amount of ‘stuff’ rattling in the grey sludgy matter today.  Slept through till 7 – new pain killers are great!! While I’ve slept the brain has obviously had a fun night working over a few things as having some inspirational little bursts – pity I haven’t written them down!  Must do that as the old memory is a bit dodgy at time – funny that!  Still in a good head space, so that’s now day 4, I think, which is great.  Physically though Wilson arm sore and head is too but that’s normal.

I could ramble on about friends, life, shitty things that life throws at us, what I’ve got, what’s going to happen to me – but really we know all this anyway.  We are all going to eventually leave this world – how?  Well, yes you could say you could influence that, but it is not a way that I would think any one I know would consider.  While there maybe many fights worth walking away from, it doesn’t mean that you concede that there isn’t a battle worth having.  Just play it smarter – after all, I might have turned my back many times of fights but it doesn’t mean that I’ve not got my score sheet for vengeance still running.  Probably an Edmonds trait I would say that we don’t give in and will find a way to fight on always – bloody minded stubbornness!

I think that one of the hardest things at the moment though is trying to find what the lesson is from the path on currently on while travelling this journey we’re on.  I mean, really there must be something! Yep, could get deep into it but that’s wrong, as the most easiest lessons in life are those at the surface.  So I guess I better listen to my own words there and stop diving to the deep stuff and start looking at what’s lying on the surface.  Some will say not to look others will say to look harder.  Whatever way you look at it – it’s your choice, and I have mine – just mine happens to be more public!  I’m looking and maybe one day I’ll have an answer, but if along the way others learn something then all the better.

On with the day – Nigel, and several others from Fairfax IT Auckland are in town for meetings.  Nigel an I have a chance to catch up and chat about lots of things – thanks Nigel.  Also good to see all the others too.  I would have done my hair if I knew we were going to have you all here – teasing!  Quietly, steady day again.  Stuck on a job that I just can’t get to run properly, but I’ll get it sorted.  Head off about 1:15 to get an MRI done.  Then home.  Feeling absolutely exhausted! Try to get on with work  but struggling.  Eventually stop and we go for a walk to get some fresh air to see if that revives me.  Stop by The Booth family to say Hi and have a quick catch up.

Home then for dinner.  Have a bourbon and pain-killer starter for dinner – I know not right but it works!  Joh then calls for a quick catch up too – thanks Joh.  Struggling with fatigue tonight still, so are thinking I will be a finish blog and hit the sack night and try to finish the book I’ve been reading for the past 4 months – I know, slow ass reader.  It’s not electronic so it takes a while longer to make work, as I can’t find the on switch   Rightly – enough dribble for the today.  Be good, rest and play well – take care.

Kia Kaha.