3 Too Many

Day 13 of 23 treatment free.

“The greatest healing therapy is friendship and love.” – Hubert H. Humphrey, Jr.

Wake at 5:30 and lay there staring at the ceiling thinking about crap till about 6:45 – then fall asleep & sleep through the alarm until 7:25 so a mad rush to get ready!  Murphy’s law really.  Feeling sad, sick and sore today. Out the door to school & work by 8:10. 

Quiet morning really as head hurting, and my vision on the left side is starting to go I now have a blurry/fuzzy look across it and it is hurting.  Sue calls the neurosurgeon to see if they can tell us what to expect as these tumors start to make their impact.  Vision is one of the signs that things are changing.  It is not like the blob that was caused by radiation.  Well it had to happen so not surprised really.  It’s like the constant head pain.  Even my medium strength pain killers now don’t take it away. Mark comes into visit and have a coffee and a catch up – thanks Mark appreciate the break.  Get picked up at 1:15 and head home to meet the curtain lady as apparently we need new curtains to go with the new paint job.

You may have guessed that the blog is hard work today to be honest as not in the mood for it and just feel that low I can’t get anything to spark in the way of rambling.  In fact the past few couple of weeks have been tough going.  I have lots going on in my head and things to say but just can’t get it out or it is not really suitable to be put into the public domain.  I will try to get myself to a better place soon but it will take time.  On the plus side I am at 90kgs now so by tomorrow I’ll be below 90!  Fantastic.

Roh & Kate stop by for a visit.  I do a bit more work and then watch some tv.  Go and have a burst on with the weights & spin bike now that I have them back in the garage.  That seems to be what I need to kick-start me again.  Knackered but feel better letting a bit of stress out.  Going to hurt tomorrow though!  Dinner time then – not that I feel like anything – try to eat but no joy.  I can’t even force myself to eat it tonight.  Finish off the blog and watch TV. No Milo even tonight as I can’t stomach that either. Bloody hell – loosing taste for everything!

Kia Kaha.