3 Too Many

Day 23 of 26 Treatment Free or now it is going to be 3 days till T day 2 (3 days till treatment round 2, Chemo, starts).

Drifting on and off since about 4:45 but wait till 6:15 till getting up.  Head feeling great again – yay.  Body not aching either – double yay!  Can’t wait till I get off these ‘in case’ drugs all together. I see them like have a cast on a leg in case you break it.  If I have a seizure (and apparently I will once the tumors get big enough – like 3cm isn’t already enough room for the big one to occupy), then I’ll give in and take them again.  I guess if you read this and don’t know me then you’ll be starting to get the picture that I don’t generally comply with the norm – well I do for about 10 seconds then I’ll be questioning things or doing it differently.  Instructions are rules to be corrected, rules are guidelines to be tested, and laws are rules to be challenged.  Just be sure you have it right when you do challenge though or at least have a bloody good argument or  are able to debate well.  Anyway – feeling so good that I hit the spin bike for a session.  Manage to do 5.5kms in 15mins and feel good – though wobbly legged.  Easy biking watching music videos on the tablet – makes the time fly.  Good effort by my well depleted soft ass standards – just need the gym and weights now.  I have extra motivation too as the bloody dodgy scales at the hospital yesterday said I have lost only 1kg – ahh!!  I don’t care how many health professionals tell me that its fine to be overweight with cancer – to me been 14kgs heavier than I was 4 months ago and feeling unfit is not sitting well.  If my head is back in the right space then no reason to get my fitness back either – may as well be as normal as possible (but really our normality is only an idea that we create in our minds based on the perception of the world we have based on our upbringing and interpretation of those around us based on their actions in relation to these perceptions and interpretations). How is that for deep – phew!!

On with the day before I melt the brain down to much with the deep stuff  Brekky and off to work.  Good day at work, everything cruising along – no issues for a Tuesday so all good.  Keep up the search for missing pubs from around the Feb quake, slow process but needs to be done.  Head off after lunch as wearing down.  Home then for a rest then log back in to work for bit later on.  Heading out to dinner with Greg & Wendy tonight as cancelled once when I went downhill and ended up in hospital.

Good evening out – excellent Thai Yellow Curry for dinner with a totally bad for you fried banana sundae (I know I have just done bad things for myself but bugger it  Also had a great catch up.  Home then to relax – blog then sleep as fading again – sorry G&W – will stop next time for coffee.

M&D time as usual – this will continue.  Have a good day/evening/arvo all.

Kia Kaha.