3 Too Many

“Sanity is a madness put to good uses.” ― George Santayana

Whats with this Spa Pool craziness going on?  I think I better have another look at what I said properly.  Painful sleep.  Got some sleep in but more spells of sleep rather than out cold Zzzzzz’sss!!!  If you know what I mean.  Manage to stay in bed until about 3:30am then get up as hurting to much and just really restless.  Head downstairs to get a Milo and to take what I can in tghe way of pain meds, then wait for them to kick in.  End up curling up on the couch with the cat and promptly fall asleep.  Wake again about 5:30am and head back to bed.  The day has warmed up to 22 already – could be another scorcher on the way I think.

Get up again about 9am – real lazy Sunday, and just cruise along.  Want to suggest we do breakfast out but decide against it as everyone is relaxed enough at home.  Jacob is at Brad’s so only Sue, Lachie and I here anyway.  Just set about coasting through the day as no plans have been made.  Only commitment is to mow the lawns.  Oh, and by the sounds of it, measure up for where a Spa pool can fit in   Might suggest then pool shopping, along with the other “needed” things like a new waste disposal, and a dish drawer dish washer.  I think that maybe a cash in of a life policy may be needed to fund this seen as the horses didn’t really help yesterday and I certainly didn’t win Lotto last night.  So if we’re cashing in a policy then, what else do we need?  Boys bikes, me a chaffeur,  a new car, coffee machine – oh hang on – I just realised I got carried away then and put somethings I want – can’r have that!  Just ignore me as usual, I will eventually go away   End up going to Bunnings to get a couple of new outside taps, and some other bits and bobs.  Then go to Norman Ross and buy a new beer fridge, cause we need one apparently.  Thanks Andy for coming to collect it.   Very helpful.  Kate and Lachie spend the arvo playing in the pool after Sue fixes the leak – thanks to the in adqueate assembly of this failing male   IO mow the lawns, and potter round the place.  Doing tidy up bits.

Trying to do a purge if you like of the meds I am on, and only take the nesseities so that when it comes to really needing them the ones I need more of will actually work better when I need them too.  It takes a bit of work and some practice to get it right but it can be done.  It is juts my take on how to handle all these meds.  And seen as 90% of what I am taking is pain killers, and to be able to get on top of the pain quicker with lower strenght drugs has to be good as far as I’m concerned.  The odd thing they can’t explain to me is what causing the pain in my lower back – that is the one that I really can do without as it stops you fast in your tracks when it kicks in.

Also been thinking and feeling sad about how I hurt people prior to getting this new drug, and the changes ithas brought about in me.  If I had it from the start (back in March this is), then what course would life have taken?  Would I have written so freely about things?  Would I have been so open about how living a life that is destined to end too soon?  Would I have lost the same people along the way?  So many questions and just blank answers.  I guess I can think a lot more about the answers and try to come up with them but I don’t know if I really have the time to put into it anymore, see I am wanting to now make sure that I get something positive out of each and everyday.  BTW – those folk that I never got in contact on Xmas day – I’m really sorry about – you were all on my mind and I did send my best wishes to you all virtually, it’s just I would’ve spent most of my day typing txt or msgs in reality. (Then again I never heard from some of you either ;-).  We may just try for New Years this time – eh??

Get through the day – painfully   I knew one of these days was due to arrive soon.  Just can’t pick them and they naw away at you like pesky little rodents.  Lisa and Jimmy visit.  I plod on as much as possible before crashing out – bugger it, I am trying to get a full day in without loosing time to sleep.  Quiet evening, trying to get the blog done before the siezures get hold of me and spoil it all.  Have a chat to Joh for a bit then finish blog properly.  Trust all have had a a fantastic day and not given in to spa pools or other such wims today.  Take care.

Kia Kaha.