3 Too Many

“Everybody wants to go to heaven; but nobody wants to die.” – Albert King

5-6 hours broken sleep but at least I’ve had some sleep. So I’ll class it as a a victory. But with that much sleep then why the hell do I feel so bloody lousy. To much sleep now? Christ I can’t bloody win. Too little sleep and feel shit,to much sleep and feel well shitty too. Probably due to the heat though as it nearly got below mid twenties last night.

So anyway, woken about 7:30am and up and into the day. Have breakfast and cuppa. Then get the day going. Cook breakfast for masses then,get ready to face the day. Don’t have to shave my head as I was bored and had a steady hand and did that at 2am. The plan is we had off to meet the Fafitas and Johnson’s families then have a picnic day sort of thing with them at Rabbitt Island.

Feeling so much better today than yesterday. So intend to make the most of unused of energy levels, etc. Head to the supermarket to pick up some essentials then meet at the Fafitas. Follow them out to the Island. Have an incredibly funday catching up like old Times, with everyone,and enjoying watching the new additions to the families, including Jaron – our beautiful Godson. Love that the hyper, attitude, wee man is our special man. Definitely full of life and beans, and one hell of a great set of screaming lungs! I have to call it quits about 3pm as pain and fatigue are beating me down again. Sue drives me back to the motel and I have a lady down but no sleep for a bit, which is enough to revive me. The boys have stayed with the others and we head off back to the Fafitas for a BBQ dinner and more catching up. Head home about 8am as the boys tied and I’m on the drop again. Get home and watch the movie “Marley and Me” and do the blog.

I’ve had a couple of emotional spells today,with just waves of tears hitting me without warning. I’m wondering if it is caused by my rumorsor the new drugs,this new clarity? It is hard to describe, but at one spell today, I had this huge reality check get me. I’m dying! No really, take a breath here you silly fool ,but you are. Don’t ask why or where it came from but it felt good to let it out and also to in a strange way to set some of me free as well. Hope this makes sense. I will try to make it clearer tomorrow may be when my laptop and I are backtogether again, but trying this conversation/explanation from a tablet computer is not easy.

What a fun day. Lots of relaxation and fun. And catching up. Really hope that all have had a brilliant fun day too. Home on Friday and back to reality. Thinking of you all. Take care.

Kia Kaha.