3 Too Many

Hey hey it’s Friday – thank bloody goodness!!!  It has been a very long emotionally, physical week.

Must have been absolutely stuffed from Thursday as only drugs last night were the anti seizure ones – which I have to take regardless, I slept until about 6am – Yay – new record sleep in as such – as I slept all the way through the night. Thought about the gym, then though of self-preservation for dSaturday (see below). May as well start the day – iron Jacob a shirt & short for school (bout time he did it himself slack bum)!  Then install more RAM in hom laptop, an give it  quick flick over of drivers, an a couple of tweaks – all good running heaps better.

Need a cuppa tea, & a haircut (yep no hair still needs to be trimmed – well before I become a completely hairless headless). Why does time seem to slow down on me yep I am moving quickly still (or have I just really slowed so much that I don’t realise it?).  My driver is here & running late again.

Off to PortaCare at Logistics – still it is Friday, so brekky at Cafe Raeward as usual – scrambled eggs, extra, extra bacon today – its raining need comfort food – honest & green tea.  Plus a backup food supply of 2 cheese scones for lunch – I know – I’m just piggy at the moment – sorry!

Slow start to the day –  lots going on with the Southland site printing – which I’m trying to keep up with as my old turf – hell – way to blow my mind guys – I can’t cope with all the emails as I’m still trying to process things. Bugger – these tumors have stripped some of my memory   If I’ve got Wilson back then I’ve now got another challenge – to not loose my bloody memory. Doesn’t sound like a big thing – wrong it’s huge!  I have always happily filed useless crap away and recall many things.  Have a moment to dwell on it.  Need to work on this though as can’t  have memories lost.

Off for another quick trip to the CBD – then back to work as Dad picking me up to pass to the next career in the chain (I am to be under 24 supervision at all times – in case you wonder why all the mention of people of being with all the time – and I mention of celebrating getting time alone).  Jane – sister-in-law & John her partner are here from Auckland and collect me from Dad’s and Jacob from school then home to meet Sue and Lachlan then we are off to visit Nana one last time and say our personal good byes. We meet Jenny & her son Adam at the Funeral home (still don’t know why they call it a funeral home – you’re not there to stay or sleep). 

Nana is beautiful, and at peace.  The undertakers have done a great job.  A bit of black humour is shared about the place, etc. Got to have a laugh about somethings else you’d rock in a corner!  One last kiss & goodbye till? Yep – it hit me – mortal moment! Jacob hugs me & says it’s OK Dad – He & Lachie are is so in tune with me at the moment – it makes me realise how real it is for them too. Family hug time.

Off to West Melton – Pam & Karl’s for dinner and a catch up with Nevil, Rose , Pam, Karl, – they all look as drained emotionally as I feel – and I am outside this. Helen (Zoe’s daughter & Stephen (her partner) arrive too – great to have a catch up with all and dinner.

Head home then as don’t want too late a night – Lachie has a footy game before the funeral, and – da, dah, dah – I am playing my last competitive game of footy tomorrow afternoon – yes last ever! Honest – actually reality it has dawned on me about this situation and I may be  able to one day keep practicing the odd Wed but no more getting my head in the way of chicken winged attackers or any other object that does harm to the head in forced blunt contact.  I am also playing as the guys in the Halswell Pinkies team are all shaving their heads in support of me tomorrow – so a humbling moment.

Decide to be a rebel and take the car 600 metres up the road to get fuel – to save stress in the morning before the funeral. Cleverly decide to put the car the the car wash at the same time – well I thought was clever until the wash cycle finished so I thought I’ll flick out the wing mirrors while the wash unit goes back to start the drier phase – doh! The bloody polish starts spraying! Ah – very wet inside the car all over me – bugger bugger!  You muppet! (common fault here – I thought!)   So clean car in and out – really.  Come home to display shiny car, clothes, head and car interior!  And to find that Nana’s Belgium Biscuit recipe has been broken out for one memorial batch to be baked by Sue and Jane.

Time to blog, practice memories reading for funeral tomorrow – and get footy gear out.  I might need more time yet – M&D time coming I think  – well do I go with the pain killers – head is hurting as i have dropped 1 steroid a day and banged my head 3 times today already – or do I wait and see if I sleep or wake in pain than pain-killer it. Hell I remember I used to have a Milo then bed! Not decide if my drug mix was going to produce a hyper sleep or a deep one – oh somber normality whence will you return from you’re retirement?

M&D time folks – till the morrow.  Take care – have a fantastic day.

Kia Kaha