3 Too Many

“A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.” – Herm Albright

“Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.” – Groucho Marx

Sore, sore, sore – what’s not sore or hurting!  Yep, paying the price for yesterdays exercise.  Even my little fingers are aching.  Oh well one thing to do – pain killers!  Dose up with them.  Have a cuppa tea brought to me in bed as I’m reading my book.  Jacob is in bed too looking at footy gear online on the laptop.  At least he is awake at a reasonable hour and out of bed today.  Eventually get up and get ready to face the lovely sunny day.  The nausea is back again too along with the terrible taste in my mouth, so have a liquid breakfast.

In the book I’m reading there is a piece that is very apt for anyone that is fighting for anything in their life.  It refers to the movie Rocky and the fact that he didn’t care if he won the fight that ends the move.  He just didn’t want to get knocked out.  That was his goal.  How this is applicable is that it is not how hard you hit, but how hard you can get hit, but still keep moving forward.  I guess that tomorrow night I get to be Rocky for the week and take on my fight against the mofo’s.  In other words another Chemo round coming up, and it will take it’s toll on me, but I will keep going and give it my best.  I am also determined to give my best because I have a reward to myself at the end of this round – Masters football.  I have 2 days (7 x 50 minute games) next weekend in which to behave like a headless chicken again and just give myself hell – fun hell – for the weekend.  Oh and there is the chance to party up a bit and have fun socialising   Why would I do it?  Because I can I want too, and it is footy after all!  I also can shut out the pain of the moment when focusing on things I enjoy.  I may not be able to walk properly on Monday but at least I can say I had fun.  Sucker for punishment really I guess.

Have a really quiet day, just doing some chores around the house.  And watch some of Bathurst – bloody Holden’s!!  Sue puts dinner on (Roast Lamb) as we are having Nevil and Rose and Jenny and Greg over for tea too.  I head to bed for a nap as hurting like hell for a quick nap.  2 hours later I get up with my head and body hurting more and feeling sick.  The smell of the lamb cooking is vial   Have a liquid dinner as I just can’t face food.  Pain killers sort of working.  I do the dishes as sitting down is uncomfortable, and standing is helping.

Good night relaxing and doing blog, and relax.  Do M&D time then head to bed as have a very early start at work tomorrow because I am helping Jono on the Google Desk at work – Fairfax have migrated to GMail as the new corporate email system this weekend and there are a lot of devices that need to be reconfigured, and people needing help to find their way around it properly.  Trust everyone has indulged in a wonderful day and are refreshed ready to face the new week.  Take care of yourself then of others. 

Kia Kaha.