3 Too Many

“Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.” – Harriet Beecher Stowe

6am and all is sore – sorry it’s meant to be all is well (and I guess this is as close to well that I can expect).  Feeling a bit sad today, but not really sure why.  What it’ll be like in the end. When will the end be?  As from what I’ve read because brain tumours are not like other tumours in the body, where there is noticeable impacts on certain organs, the brain is the control centre for everything, and apparently it is common for people with them to only suffer some seizures, then drop into a coma or semi comatose state before the end.  A bit scary really.  Anyhow, it is something we’ll be discussing with the Doctor on Monday as I need to know what to really look out for.  Get up then about 6:30 and head downstairs for my meds and then into the gym for a workout.  The meds are a bit slow at working today, but manage to do a 20min workout.  Feel better for doing it.  Have a liquid breakfast as they seem to help a bit on the nauseous days.  Though today’s one is taking a real effort to hold down.  But at least it is something to run the body for the day.  At this rate I’m going to fade away before I finish treatment   Get ready then to face the day.

Boys still in bed as usual and don’t rise until 9 this morning.  Sue heads off to work, and I get to work too.  Quite morning.  Lachlan heads off to Josh’s for a play, and ends up staying the night.  Jacob is a busy bever in the garden weeding, then mows the lawn.  Sue gets home and we have lunch.  I manage to eat something – yay real food!!  What an awesome day – sunny and warm – 22 degrees! Get on with more work, until the fatigue kicks in.  I decide to go and have a lay down for half an hour.  I set my alarm and then sleep through it (well actually just turned it off and went promptly back to sleep). Get woken 2 1/2 hours later still tired as.  Feel like I’ve been hit by a bus. Seems I missed the weather changing – cool and windy now – bloody Easterly.

Go back to work for a bit.  And help sort out a couple of issues.  Then Jacob and I go out and have some passes and play some backyard Rugby.  Then inside and I cook dinner – Teriyaki Stir Fry.  That is a real challenge when you are feeling sick.  Still manage it and force my self to eat some.  At this rate I’ll start putting on weight Have a Bourbon because I can, then start the blog, and watch Criminal Minds.  Going to have an earlish night as starting to fade again now – bugger it. Will do M&D time and head to bed to read for a bit in the hope of going to sleep, seen as I had such a lousy sleep last night.  Hope all have had a good day/arvo/evening.  Be good and be careful.  Sorry it is a short and sweet blog tonight, but my heart is just to into it today as it is sad and heavy , hope you understand.

Kia Kaha.