3 Too Many

“Each choice we make causes a ripple effect in our lives. When things happen to us, it is the reaction we choose that can create the difference between the sorrows of our past and the joy in our future.” — Chelle Thompson

5:30 waking, but I don’t really mind as feeling in a better frame of mind and place than yesterday.  Watching the ceiling, passing time thinking about doing/finishing Thursdays blog, but decide better of it as don’t want to risk changing the mood back down again.  I decide that Thursday is the past and it will not be revisited.  Manage to doze off again until about 6:30.  Sue makes a cup of tea for me – such novelty.  Get up then and get ready for the day.  Downstairs for the morning meds – head is a bit sore, but back on the new pain killer again and it seems to be going OK so far.  Body and joints are aching though, so panadol, to help take care of that.

Off to the office then.  Relaxed atmosphere at work, and have a good day.  Watch the big demolition nibbler – aptly named twinkle toes, eat away at the Price Waterhouse building.  It is very impressive, like a giant preying mantis chomping its way through some fresh prey.  I will try to get a photo of what it is like, as I have a prime view from my desk.  There has to be some perks to working next to the Red Zone.

Head off about 1:15 as tiring.  Seem to have a ‘phase’ of tiredness hit from about 1-7:30 at night.  I can just sit and sleep – no warning really, just wham and gone!  Got to work on how to get over it.  Mum comes over about 2 for a visit as I haven’t seen her in about 3 weeks.  Baggas and Yvonne stop over too, to drop off some tickets to the Phoenix footy game on Sunday.  And Yvonne has made a quilt for us too.  Incredible work.  Thank you so much.  Thanks Mum too for visiting.

Boys get home.  Have a bit of a catch up on the day.  Then have a lay down as knackered.  Wake about an hour later, feeling more tired.  Just need to get moving again, I think.  Jacob gets me a wheat bag as my neck and shoulders are sore – just deep nagging pain.  Need to shake it as has going to Craig’s for F&C for tea.

Been thinking about yesterdays little explosion of feelings.  Everyone has bad days, and I’m no different.  I think that it is just that if I do have a bad day I need to explain or justify the reasons why.  Yes head hurts – when doesn’t it?  It is the way it is now – pain is just normal.  In fact I would be worrying more if I didn’t feel any, anywhere.  Moods are allowed to change to.  I’m not going to be happy and cheery everyday, though I will put on the face that I feel I need too, to mask the real me of the day.  Some days I can’t expl;ain what or why I feel like I do, but hey, I have 3 mofo’s doing strange shit inside my head, pressing in places that make you do things.  It’s only going to get worse, unfortunately.  I’m ready for it.  Are you?  Have another side ways shift happen too.  Getting used to these again, now.  But on the plus side, I’m here, alive and well except the obvious, and still functioning normally (OK my normal).  Lets just enjoy it while I’m here and not analyse it.

Had a good cruisy night with Craig, Ben and Matt – Cheers Gents.  Get home and sore again – uggghh!!  Story of my life really.  So there you have the day in a nutshell.  Hope all have had a great day/arvo/evening and are ready for a fantastic weekend.  W&D time and sleep.

Kia Kaha.