3 Too Many

“Go for it now. The future is promised to no one.” ~Wayne Dyer

Shite sleep!  Spent from 3:45ish until 8:30 asleep in my lazy boy as it was the only comfortable place to be, and even then it was only just.  My back was just giving me absolute hell!!  I lost count of the number of times I got up and the amount of Milo’s I drunk or even the amount of pain killers (of course I did actually keep track of this, but it feels as though I was constantly taking them).  I am just sooo tttiiirreeddd!!!!!!!!  And have the strangest feeling inside.  It is difficult to describe how it feels, but imagine out of energy, and out of breath, making you feel like you are drowning almost but don’t have the energy left to draw another full breath, and it is a struggle to stand or move.  If you you stand you re really unsteady on your feet and feel like you are swaying constantly.  Anyhow – this is how I am now spending  the whole day feeling.  It is just hard to explain how it feels – in a way trapped inside yourself like this.  It sort of messes with your mind in that is this what it is like having your mind wind your body down?  Don’t take that the wrong way – I’m not giving in or going anywhere – there is a hell of a fight still in me and while it just means the fight has to be done differently, it doesn’t mean that I can’t keep battling on longer.

Wake about 8:30 to all the family around me  – well I am in the lounge after all and seen as the kitchen is just off the side of it I guess that it would be reasonable to think that they want breakfast and to watch TV.  Joking.  Sue and Lachie are getting ready to head off to Lachie’s footy practice and footy registrations.  Jacob and I stay home.  Spend the morning trying to get enough energy together to be able to actually do anything.  Get ready to get on with the day.  Aubrey turns up to collect the tree trimmings from the other day.  Jacob and I help load them on the trailer.  My bloody back gives me hell the whole time.   Also have my bloody hobbit foot coming back!  Yep the swelling is starting to return to my left foot- oh hell.  So off to the Doctor tomorrow to get there opinion on ity early – I bloody well hope there is no infection coming back.   

Quiet arvo not doing a lot really.  Sue and Lachie get home.  Joh calls and we have a catch up for a bit.  You’re sounding well Joh.  Take care and we’ll catch up again soon.  Sue an Jaob hed off then to Bunnings to get some bits.  I muster up enough energy to mow the lawns – that’s enough to ruin me for about and hour.  Dinner time.   Watch some TV then do the blog.  M&D time and bed coming up.  I have the feeling that I am going to have a restless night again – bugger it. Really trust that you’re day/evening/arvo has been brilliant and more energetic than my day.  Take care all.

Kia Kaha.