3 Too Many

“You have been blessed with immeasurable power to make positive changes in your life.”  ― Steve Maraboli

 What a shit of a restless bloody night!!!  I think I’d would’ve been lucky to have more than an hours sleep straight!  So needless to say that I’m a walking zombie today.  Feel messed up in the head too.  It’s not starting to really worry me as such but it makes me more aware of myself when I have several days straight of this ‘odd’ feeling.  Why such a broken sleep?  Back pain – check.  Tremors – lots – check. Just bloody uneasy about things – check. Spent more time purched against the bench in the kitchen and contorting the lazy boy into odd positions to try to get comfortable, but nothing really worked.  Restorted to magic mist spray and good pain killers to try to drown out the pain and tremors.  Anyway made it thru the night and wake at 6:20am.  Wake the boys, and head downstairs to meds and tea – staple diet now.

Get meds on board and mke a cuppa.  Iron school uniforms for the lads, and keep giving them a gentle boot in the bum to keep them moving along.  I get ready for the day.  Brekkie done, boys leave.  Have some brekkie too.  Then Sue and I hit the road for work.  Get in a bit earlier today which is good as it means I can get on to a couple of jobs uninterrrupted – hopefully.  Going to be an awesome day, as already nearly 20 degrees.  Get the work underway then head around to Re:Start mall to the bank before it gets too busy.  Lovely walk, but almost getting to hot now.  Lots of tourists out and about – encouraging sign for the city to have so many people prepared to see what’s left of our town.  Have to stop a couple of times heading back to the office as my back is hurting to much.  Make it back eventually.  Check in on my jobs running, and all good.  Get ready then to head off to my next appointment  – fracture clinic – to have the broken Pinky looked at.

Ann drops me off at the Bealey Clinic where it’s at.  Splint is off – yay!  Finger is very swollen still and very sore still too. Not really impressed with the Doctor as he doesn’t hardly touch or look at the injury, fills out a form and says I am now under the care of a Physio, make an appointment with them and they will deal with it.  Asked why no follow up X-Ray as they had mentioned last time and he said it looks and feels fine so a  Physio can deal with it now.  It only happened 2 1/2 weeks ago so the bone has really only started knitting properly.  Can see things going wrong here.  Oh well – still nice to have the splint off, and be able to move it around.  Sue collects me from the clinc and we head home as it is heading towards 1pm anyway.  I am startign to get jaded, and grumpy, so stop by the chemist to get more meds on the way that I need.  Manage to get a Physio appointment for 4pm today.  They are surprised that I have been sent to them so early too, but they give me some exercises to get it moving again and tell me to take it easy.

Get home and get dinner ready.  Boys do home work.  I finish up the job I was doing – will keep working on it tomorrow.  Head out for a walk around the block, just a short jaunt -2.5 km.  Start on the blog, to see if I can ramble out something useful and meaningful.  I’m feeling that I seem to be missing putting in some of my ‘thoughts’ about dealing with the cancer, and the changes that happen from my perspective.  I will work on it and see what crosses my weary mind and falls out.  There is a lot bottled up in me at the moment and some does need to be shared, somethings need to be dicussed with those that it is going to closely affect, and some will just be with me as long as I am breathing!  Hope you understand this and it is not to cryptic, but you may already gathered that my life is split into islands (as Sue likes to say it) I think more onion rings and as such not everything is shared on the blog. 

Trust Monday has gone smoothly for all of you, and you have come away smiling and happy.  If not then don’t worry as it will be all over very soon, and the good thing is you have another chance to improve the day tomorrow.  Take care, be good at being bad and keep smiling as it makes people wonder what you’ve been up too.

Kia Kaha.