3 Too Many

“Out of my mind. Back in five minutes.” – Unknown

 Gave in and took a bloody sleeping pill last night – good and bad idea!!  Good in that yes I did get to sleep, bad in that I spend all today feeling flat, terrible and emotiionally beaten down.  I woke several times with pain (guess even sleeping pills can’t trump pain).  end up getting up about 4 times and the longest was for about 2 hours.  When I went to bed for the last time about 4:30am and manage to stay asleep until about 9am – no recollection of much before then either.  Wake to find Jacob playing Play Station and Sue has long gone to work.

I head downstairs and make a cuppa tea and breakfast and check in on work.  Jacob comes down to entertain me while I eat and work.  We have a great morning together – lots of laughs to the point of almost tears.  Glad to see he is of the same madness mould as his old man   Get ready for the day – though as mentioned, it is bloody slow going.  The world is in slow motion bigtime.  Thankfully the pain seems to be at bay so can function in someway.  Keep on with some work, and try to fight through these feelings.  On a real downer at the moment, but I’ll bounce back.  Have lunch and Sue gets home.  Have a discussion about things as Nurse Maude have called and approved some of the new pain management plan, and also have a sleep plan to maybe try.  They are also going to be visiting me on Thursday now so have to wait for the times, so will be spending the day waiting to see them rather than in at work.  The pain is back with a real vengance – bloody bastards.  I can’t even walk to the letterbox without having to stop

Head off to the airport then to drop Jacob off.  He is playing young man today on his first ever solo flight and flying off as a YP (young person, not unacompanied minor) AirNZ.  He is so excited that he is  driving us insane!!  The check in guy with AirNZ is brilliant with him, making him feel special and treating him as a young man.  Jacob laps up the attention and the moment.  The most nervous moment is when he clears security and is trying to find his gate.  He finds his way, gets on the plane, and texts that he is all sorted and happy.

Get home and Deb and Glen come over for  a drink and a chat.  Jacob arrives in Auckland and lets us know.  He’s as happy as a rat in a flour sack.  Cook dinner and then head out for a walk around the block – 3.6km.  Manage to do it between pain waves thankfully.  It wasn’t high speed but I did it!!  Home then to write the blog and watch some TV.  Struggle to stay awake – going to only take a half sleeping tablet tonight so see what that does to me.  Hopefully – sleep, not drawn hangover feeling broken dozing.  Trust all have had a great day and lots of fun.  Take care with everything everyone.  Sorry it’s short and sweet today but I am to tired and sore to be able to really write anything sensible or non-sensible depending on how you want it.  So M&D time and bed.

Kia Kaha.