3 Too Many

“Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways.” – Stephen Vincent Benét

Well talk about interesting sleeps – or lack of then to much.  The usual pattern last night with sleep, to bed, then up again about 3am.  This time in pain (body and head) so deal to that the best I can.  Sit in the lounge chair and manage to get comfortable enough to be able to doze off to sleep again. Wake again then about 4am and have pain still so make a Milo and sit down to look at Tyler’s laptop for a bit as it is mainly body pain now.  So plod on with that for a while.  Give up and head back to the chair for another 30mins or so sleep of sorts.  Wake and head upstairs then to bed as it is 6:30 now.  Instantly go out like a light.

Next thing I know I wake feeling rather odd, and expect to see it is about 9am – not 12:15!!! Sue left me to sleep as I was out cold when she left for work, and knowing I had already had a bad night thought, quite rightly that rest was probably the better thing for me.  To say it put me in a tail spin is a bit of an understatement!  I had meds to catch up on, not eaten, not told work that I was not going well today, and Nurse Maude turning up in 30 mins or so!  So a spray of the magic mist (like that name) and I’ve settled.  Find out that Sue has checked in on things.  Get meds on board and then get thru the shower quickly.  Feeling a little less fractious now.  The boys are enjoying the day outside and have waited until I get up before getting in the pool.  They are soon in there and acting like a couple of performing seals!  Sue arrives just before the Nurse Maude Doctor does.  Have a good meeting with the doctor and have a new plan set ready for my next meltdown.  The Doc heads off on her way, and we hit the road to the chemist to drop off the scripts.  Drop in to Doc, Trudy’s and Logan’s in Halswell while we are out to talk about school uniforms – yep the next big bill after Xmas!!  Doesn’t bloody stop!  Head home quickly as I break down in pain at their house and need to get home.  Sorry guys – I hate it when I just get belted with the 4×2 from nowhere cause these Mofo’s just can do it to me.  It’s not fair.  Back home then.  Have a sit down for a spell as not feeling the best at all :-(t

I was intending to login to work and try to get somethings done, but in reality I think today is going to be a complete write off.  I am developing very wobbly wheels, and having lots of tremors.  The pain is still there – from just below the ribs down to my feet.  There is no reason for why I get it, even the doc’s are a bit stumped, but they think that it maybe just from where a tumour maybe pushing that causes it.  Bloody random eh! What a hot day – only 27 today but feels far hotter than that.  Back up and try to keep ticking on.  Have another crack at work, but slow going again.  Dave Withers stops by then for a quick visit.  Good to see you Dave.  Have a chat and catch up then Dave heads off again.  Time for another sit down then as bloody shattered now   What is going on with me??  For so much rest I’m going down hill a huge amount quickly.

F&C for tea, then do the blog, which takes a huge effort. Sue drops Tylers laptop back to him, then home to relax.  Watch some TV for a bit then head ot bed as falling apart now just sitting still – could be a fun weekend – NOT! I hope I have no fun things like last night when I went to take my good meds.  See , we had picked up the repeat yesterday Arvo, and brought it home.  Then last night at 10:30 I couldn’t find them.  Tried to retrace my-steps, and all that stuff.  Went through 2 bags of rubbish piece by piece, checked everywhere I could possibly think of, then in a blinding moment opened the freezer (as you do) and there in front of me by the Belvedere Vodka were the missing drugs.  Don’t as why they were there or anything.  They just were OK!  Thought I’d share my stupidity moment with you.  Hope all have had a more controlled and fun day/arvo/evening.  Take care, stay safe.

Kia Kaha.