3 Too Many

“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.” – Mary Anne Radmacher

Back to the rat race!!!  Crappy sleep – no surprises there.  Thanks not steroids for the nice waking times during what should be my sleep hours.  Bloody hell. Get up and login to work, only to discover that I can’t get into all the system that I need too be able too.  Log a call with the Service Desk and they get into help quickly.  turns out that I have to take the laptop into the office to redock it with the network to make it go.  So plan for that after I’ve know what the day has in store as have a couple of appointments first to deal with.

Get ready for the day and do what work I can still manage.  Not feeling the best today.  Speak to the Nurse Maude District Nurse about the weekends events and she is coming to visit me tomorrow as if I am to go down again and crash out the chances are it will be about day 3 after the main event, and the way I’m feeling today she could be right.  Just really busy and tired.  Jacob plans to go Ice Skating which is great, Lachie is still at Lachie’s and Sue is flatout at work.  So plan to head into work when Jacob goes Ice Skating and Jono will drop me home.

Have a good arvo seeing my colleagues that are still working, and the re-docking of the laptop works perfectly, and I can test evrything – so pleased it has gone so well.  Starting to feel completely exhausted so Jono and I head off about 5pm so nearly a full day first back.  So surprisingly feeling a little on edge about everything.  Hard to explain how you get but it is not pleasant feeling like this and so I have a spray or my magic med.  That does the trick except it makes me feel really dozey, and I have such a busy evening tonight.  I have 2 laptops to configure (upgrade RAM, complete Operating Installs, and software configurations), for private jobs.  The trouble is the bloody RAM is the most awkward positions I have ever had to tackle in my 18 years in  IT!! Still take my time (well that is a first nearly).  And there is 2 of these laptops.  Power them, up and get the OS setups underway, thank goodness for modern speed in computers – as this doesn’t take long at all and it is very self smart (unlike the plonker setting it up that forgets the password for the first one he sets up – doh – manage to get back into it though).  Give up then as still have the blog to do too.

Start the blog and crap out in the first line for about a 30 minute nap.  Then start again, then stopo, then manage to actually start and get it done before I fall apart properly.  I have this promblem now where I will start to wake again from now on as the steroids start their thing and by about 2am I’ll be wide awake, brain racing, but thankfully the appetite is starting to suppress.  Even the spray takes a while to knock me down at night, but helps more with the night terrors/panics, and drowning, breathlessness feeling I have at night when sleeping.  Complete blog and manage to post it first time – tonight!  Still haven’t heard back from the Web Master about their issues.  Hope everyone has had a brilliant day and not been too hot or too cold in this messed up weather we have here at the moment.  Or at least had a good day/arvo/evening.  Keep reading folks, and I hope these issues with the blog get sorted for all of us.  Take care and hang in there, it is easy after a while – take it from me.

Kia Kaha.