3 Too Many

“Life is like a ten-speed bicycle. Most of us have gears we never use.” – Charles Schulz

Happy Birthday Scotty – hope you have a brilliant fun filled day!

Easy sum up of today – strange, feeling odd and quiet.  Have a full night sleep – well that is the only ironic normal thing that has happened today, when it has been the most absent thing in life.  Wake about 9am after sleeping solidly.  Though I feel crappy as my head is again giving me grief.  Feeling like I have a terrible hangover (I wish) and I can bearly keep my eyes open as well. 

Stagger downstairs, as bloody in pain everywhere, so it is a literal stagger, and wobble.  Into the drugs box like a robbers dog, and take all and everything that I am allowed too.  Have some breakfast and wait for the drugs to kick in before I can even decide what I am doing today or how I am actually really feeling.  The current state of play is aching/thumping  head, feeling sick, feeling wobbly, and not right.  Minor tremors going on too and it really feels like I am about to have a big siezure – which is frightening and has me nervous.  Make an appointment with the Doctor as need to see her about my pain meds and getting them right.

Get into some work gear as intending to do some little chores to make the day go past quickly.  I manage to last about 30 minutes outside before starting to head downhill – bloody bastard of a day.  I am determined though to not crash out completely.  Pack up the tools and potter around in circles for a bit trying to actually decide on how I am feeling and what is happening to me.  There is a change today in my head, and as I have said it is frightening, and now starting to worry me a bit   The best way I can describe it is having a shitty headache then standing there and spinning around in a circle for about 5 minutes, then trying to stand there and not throw up or wobble.  Yep, that is a good way to describe it.  Sue makes me a sandwich and drink for me for lunch then heads out to meet Sandra for a coffee and a catch up.  Lachie has his mate Lachie over today.  They have a great time and keep out of my way which is great.  Sue comes home and takes me to the Doctor appointment. 

All goes well really, pain killers have now been upped further so hopefully this will make day to day life more pleasant and manageable.  If I have to do so much sucking up everyday then so be it, but if I can mange the pain better then it will be far better.  Starting and continuing a day by not being able to walk or move because of pain is not a good thing.

Home and dinner, then blog time – well try to do the blog.  Watching TV and trying to stay ‘normal’.  Hope all have had a better day than I have, and are feeling good.  Take care.

Kia Kaha.