3 Too Many

“May the bridges I burn light the way.” – Unknown

 Crap sleep again – too bloody hot, sore, restless, and wired – is that enough reasons??  Anyhow, end up with about 4 hours sleep all up through the night and reading about 3 hours.  Man it was muggy and hot last night, then I kept getting pain – normal now.  Then waking with my panic attacks where I can’t breath, probably due to the heat.  Use my magic med spray to try to get some sleep and it works a bit as I fall asleep downstairs on the couch.  Head back to bed about 3am then up again about 6am.  Beautiful, warm morning about 20 degrees already.  Decide to have an early breakfast and read the paper outside in the breeze.  Decide that it is a good morning for doing some painting, so I get the furniture oil out and oil the outside table, lazy Susan and chairs all by 7:30am.  To early??  Not a moment to waste today.  Only bugger really is pain – I have already had 2 very strong pain killers just to be able to do the staining!  Already peaking at 9 nearly 10’s!

On to the next thing and do some work on the computer next.  The house is still very quiet, actually the whole neighborhood is very quiet.  Get on with cleaning the pool next and put the filter pump on, then price airfares to Aussie to see big sis maybe.  Wow – really!!!  No plans for the day and if this pain continues then the day is going to be very quiet indeed.  Family start arising – first is Jacob whom looks like the walking dead and is refusing to go back to bed, then Sue then Lachie.  Quiet morning for all, so decide to take the dog for a long walk.  Head off for a 9km; 1 hour 40min walk!  First 30mins or so was torture, but grit teeth and loads of chatting with Jacob to aid as a distraction and I manage to hang in there and harden up princess as I would say.  Oh and  it is about 28 degrees too so zapping energy like nothing on earth.  Get home eventually after all the grumbles of the boys.

Have some lunch and more pain killers then head to Pioneer Liesure Centre to have a spa to see if it helps with my pain levels and Sue’s back pain.  Spend just over an hour there and get home feeling good.  Just enough time to get ready for the Nurse Maude Ditrict nurse to visit.  The nurse today is Jungwha (pronounced Chung Wah like the restaurant that used to be in town as she said).  She is a hard case very nice and easy to get on with Nurse.  Have a good discussion about a lot of things, but mainly the amount of pain I am in and how many ‘extra’ topup drugs I have to take to get through the day.  Off to see the Doctor tomorrow to talk about this more. 

Have dinner and then settle down to do the blog and watch some TV.  Not a big day by any means but a draining one in terms of pain and activity.  Another day made it without crashing out completely.  Feeling very on edge like I could have a siezure at any moment – not good really.  The weather has finally cooled down so I’m hoping I can have a decent sleep all night tonight – fingers crossed.  Hope all have had yet another relaxing day, and if you’ve had to work then it hasn’t been to busy.  I hope I have finally caught up with ll the txt msg from New Years now – if I haven’t yet then I’m sorry – I’ll get you soon.  I have tried though!  Take care, be good and just thing only 363 days till it comes around again

Kia Kaha.