3 Too Many

“The most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained.” – Unknown

“There are things that we don’t want to happen, but have to accept.  Things we don’t want to know, but have to learn. And people we can’t live without but have to let go.” – Unknown

A full nights sleep – Yay!!  With no noticed waking.  I must be sick!  Or the lavender sleep spray worked.  Get up at 7, but just because I’ve slept through doesn’t mean I am in a brilliant way physically.  Aching from head to toe – fun trying to move properly.  Sue brings me a cuppa tea as I’m a little slow today. Get out of bed and do my little old man impersonation until the joints stretch out enough. Get downstairs and into my meds.  Feeling on a downer again today – figure this must be part of the Chemo ‘hangover’ so to speak, as last round things were fairly similar at this time.  But the good thing is it means I am about to bounce back to have a great week.  Fingers crossed it is tomorrow, as have the boys prize giving plus parents vs kids games and a game for us old folk as well.  If I’m not completely stuff tomorrow night then I’ll be surprised.  But will rally for the boys regardless as Jacob has wanted me to go out to kick a ball all this week but I haven’t had the energy to do that, so promised that I would play against them tomorrow.

Working from home today as Sue is off to Rotorua for Sarah’s 40th birthday bash, and Jacob has a half day at school.  Plus with the way I am feeling probably best for me to stay indoors.  Sue heads off with Roh to the airport.  The boys hit the road to school too.  Home alone.  Check in on work.  Another quietish day.  Having a rough day with nausea and the taste buds playing up on me.  I’m sure it’s a conspiracy against me, to make me starve.  Have a short lay down as fatigue robbing me of energy.  Can’t even keep going through this one.  I know I have said about dishing out my energy in small doses on days like this, but I have that little energy to spare that I can’t really dish it out even – guess it really is a test day as I haven’t been this drained in a long time.  Might be a day for resigning to the fatigue when I need to so I can make it through the day.  Body aching constantly too.  probably not eating really is making it worse on both counts.

Jacob gets home, and I get hit with round two of the fatigue – another lay down – this is a joke.  Manage to force a cup of soup down, though it is not sitting to well.  Jacob takes care of me getting me things and just checking I’m ok.  He is a good lad.  Joh then calls for a quick chat – was nice to hear from you Joh.  Hit then with round three of the fatigue – enough already.  I feel worse each time I get back up, so need to stop this.  Lachlan then gets home.  Fatigue round four hits me – ahh!  Over it now.

Quiet arvo – boys go and play on the tramp for a bit.  Have F&C’s for dinner while watching tv.  Boys go to bed then I do the blog.  Fatigue is trying to fight its way in again – it will not win.  Need to head to bed to rest properly.  Tonight / tomorrow morning is the second anniversary to the day (not the date which is 4th Sept) of the 7.1 quake which started all the shakes in Christchurch.  There has now been nearly 12,000 aftershocks.  That’s a lot of bangs and rattles in 731 days.  Anyhow enough quake facts.  Time to sleep.  Have a lovely day/arvo/evening where ever you are.

Kia Kaha.