3 Too Many

“Don’t confuse your path with your destination, just because it’s stormy now, doesn’t mean you aren’t headed for sunshine.” – Unknown

Yay – a full nights sleep again (well woken a couple of times by pain, but I don’t count those now).  Mind you the theme here for full nights sleep is exhaustion!  I was that knackered after a social Sunday and dealing with the pain in my head (yes dealing with the pain does cause you to wear out more too).  Body has developed a new pain to inflict on me – a cramp on my left lung/chest.  It now takes the gold for pain infliction and length that it lasts for. Head not hurting to bad today – well so far.

The new pain is one of the fun activities that these mofo’s indirectly cause, as be it caused by them directly or any one of the bloody drugs I have to take to try to stop or counter act them it means that every day I have to take a check of myself and the changes that are or have happened overnight.  It gets tiring just doing this.  Check and note pain levels, Wilson changes, energy levels, emotional state, mental state, speech (slurring or fine), etc.  Sounds like I’m almost paranoid but it is more needing to do this for my own sake as I need to know what is happening, as I have little control over these changes.  Also been wondering about how many changes I will under go along the way.  By this I mean will Wilson just fail completely one day – already he is back to the random dropping things again.  Will the random left leg do the same thing too?  Is the constant head pain going to get worse – well I would say yes already to that.

Get ready for work, and head off via Lachies school, and an appointment.  Get into the office a bit later. Busy but steady day.  Head off about 3:30 as wearing down.  Walk home as it is helping to combat the fatigue and also helps with the fitness which in turn helps when it comes to the treatment.  Still learning just how much I can do so it doesn’t mean that I pay the price later or the next day.  Starting to feel good though from the increase in exercise.

Dinner time, then blog and watch some tv.  There is only crap on these days or is it me?  Trust all have had a great day.  M&D time now – head hurting again in waves – get wondering sometimes, as to how much it will really get to hurt yet.  I know I’ve had some screaming headaches, but this is the constant pain that is there now – 24/7.  Sorry it’s short and sweet again but head just not in the place to let much fall out, but in a good place mentally, so I count that as a victory of sorts. Anyhow – till the morrow – take care out there.

Kia Kaha.