3 Too Many

“I’m all in favor of keeping dangerous weapons out of the hands of fools. Let’s start with keyboards.” – Solomon Short

I’m all for this quote – I mean just look at me and the crap that I let spill/drop/flow from my head to the keyboard!  Really – some days I can’t even reason with myself as to where half the dribble has come from!  Anyhow – thought I’d start on something light anyway.  A bit to cover today, I know and on a Friday too, but good news must be shared and insights spilled so we will try to cover it in a happy easy way that will not take 5 hours of analysis to understand as usual.  Mind you, like to give the punters value for money.

 “I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and I love today.” – William Allan White

This quote for today is probably the most app one given the significance of the day.  Yes I am meant to start the next round of Chemo today.  But on Wednesday I went for an MRI to find out the cause of the head pain and see where ‘things’ are at with the mofo’s.  The results were not available though until this morning, and depending on what was shown, it would determine whether treatment was continued or not.  Needless to say it has been a nerve-racking and very restless time for those that knew what was happening.  Sorry for not sharing more but it is potentially leading to one of those times/situations where my future was about to either change into a new learning and acceptance of how short life could become (not that the fight would change), or the relief to know all the effort so far has made it worth while and that I’m on the right track.  Well it is good news that I can share.  The tumours have shown to have stopped grown as such, and the enhancement around them (the growth glow – in the picture the light grey mass around them) has darkened considerably meaning that they have effectively been starved therefore they can not grow.  The core of the tumours though remain and will so. But to put it bluntly – it is all good news for now!!  So start the next round of Chemo tonight at a higher dose again because I handled the last round so well – yeah right!!!  Still if this is the adjustment I must make in the battle then I will take it on.

Left the specialist somewhat happy about things, but in a way also still feeling very flat, which I’m not sure why.  All I can think is that while the news is fantastic really, it doesn’t detract from the fact that they are still there, and very real, and I still have head pain, and blurry vision, and, and, and.  Still probably not feeling fatigued, and a better sleep (here’s hoping that I can with doing the Chemo at night), I will be in a better frame of mind to take in where I’m at now.  Sue and I go to the chemist to hopefully get the Chemo script filled as the drugs are not standard ones and they are very expensive so the chemists don’t tend to stock them – they need to order them in and it takes a couple of days.  Fortunately my local pharmacy was expecting me and had at least got enough in to get me through till Monday.   Go to Thai Rendezvous for lunch while we wait for the script to be made up.  Actually have some sort of appetite back and manage to scoff down the hottest damn Green Curry I’ve had!  Lips nearly numb and bloody nose running – managed to catch it though   Pickup script and some bits from shops then home as fading away – the old fatigue beast is coming to visit.  Sort out the drugs so I’m ready to roll tonight so to speak.

Fight the fatigue monster off and try to do some work.  Sue goes to meet Lachie – I couldn’t manage to walk very far today, so stay home.  Jacob calls to say that someone has just crashed into the back of Dad’s ute so they’ll be a bit later home.  Fan, bloody, tastic – not!  Nat turns up and gets Lachie and her and the boy’s head off to indoor cricket.  Dad stops by then to drop off Jacob and swear about the car.  Jo Knudsen then stops by for a quick visit – lovely to see you Jo.  And thanks for the Lucozades – really helpful.

Nat and the boys return for dinner.  Quiet evening doing the blog and getting myself ready for the Chemo round as got to not eat from 7:30pm as need to take drugs on an empty tum at staggered times then over 3 hours.  Then retire to bed to suffer the night away.  So I hope all have had or are having a good day/arvo/evening too.  Have a brilliant, fun and safe weekend all.

Kia Kaha.