3 Too Many

Day 17 of 23 treatment free.

“When you’re up, your friends know who you are. When you’re down, you know who your friends are.” – Unknown

Well I said a sleepless night was coming.  Woken by head pain at 1:45 – try to go back to sleep but brain is processing a couple of things at 10 thousand miles an hour about friendships and whether some are really worth the effort. Other things ripping through my mind are worries about the MRI and what maybe gong on in there. Am I ready to take on my next round of Chemo next Friday? Especially knowing what the effects on me are going to be.  I think so but it still takes mental preparation. It is all for the good – I keep telling myself.  Sit down in the dark trying to workout whether to put more details in the blog or even do the blog.  Just at 6’s & 7’s about everything.  Hate the bloody steroids.

I guess what else has got me down is the reality of what is happening – not that I haven’t accepted it – it is more how fast things can seem to change which has you guessing what is actually happening.  I mean that while I’m having the treatment I can feel things happening – different effects like tremors, headaches, nausea, fatigue, these are all normal apparently.  It is the nausea, head pain, vision in my left eye – these are not normal for when you’re off treatment.  The doctor has said that they are possibly effects of radiation scaring on good brain tissue.  This could right itself but will take a while.  I guess the MRI will show a better detail of what is really going on – so I’ll just wait and see.

Mange to head back to bed about 5 and sleep through till 7:30.  So mad rush to get ready for work.  Get out of the house on time, Sue drops Lachie off then throws me out by the Art Gallery.  Get into work – nice to bed back in the office.  Go for brekky at The Boatshed with Jono & Bernard.  Tough getting through poached eggs and bacon – but manage it.  Back to work then.  Sue picks me up about 1:30 then head home.  Brekky not sitting to well

Do some chores around the house, then some more work.  Watch some TV and doze off – get woken for tea.  Not that I really could stomach any but I try to manage a bit.  Head has been hurting the whole day, but not majorly so don’t take pain killers as if you take to many then when you need them they don’t work the same as you have built up so much in your body.  Will be needing some tonight though as head starting to really thump now again.  Sue goes to Rohs for a wine and a catch up.

Well had enough of the Olympics – watching Sport Tonight with a Milo and a pain-killer side kicker, then bed.  Shattered but I don’t think that’ll stop my head or brain waking me later. Have a great evening/day/arvo all and a throughly enjoyable weekend.

Kia Kaha.