3 Too Many

Day 11 of 23 treatment free.

“Smile, tomorrow will be worse” – Anonymous

Wake at 4:15 and drift on and off until about 7:15.  No point getting out of bed as no urgent drugs to take and nothing to get up for.  Gives me plenty of thinking time.  Feeling really good physically today but still not exactly in the right mental state.  Hope that it will pass sometime soon as it could be a miserable time spending the rest of my days like this.  Think about the idea of the Living Funeral – thanks too to those that have let me know their thoughts on it – all positive which is great.  Also think about how I can break this monotony of life that I am now trapped in. The same day, the same things, the only difference is how I physically feel really.  It is going to do my head in – so to speak. I guess I may as well just resign to accepting that this is how life will be and add it to the list of losses.  I said at the start of this that there must be a lesson to be learnt or taught from this – I think it is one so far that is no matter how good it seems to be it still gets tougher everyday and that is while you feel good still! You will have victories along the way as well but the losses are more incisive.  I am trying to stay positive about getting to the end of the treatment as best I can.  One thing is that now since finishing Chemo I have lost nearly 8kgs.  That means that in another week or so I’ll be back to my old weight pre this and in another 2 weeks I’ll be fading away. 

Cool day for playing footy.  Lachie and Sue head off with Craig and Matt to their game which they win 2-1 thereby taking out the competition for the season – well done Lachie.  Sarah & Majenta come and get Jacob and I and take us to his game at Halswell where they lose 5-3.  Home then for lunch and a catch up with Sarah and Majenta.  I do some work checking on the Southland servers that have been restarted.  Lunch doesn’t sit to well in the tum so have a lay down and nap for an hour. Still feel lousy   Then find out that the Halswell Pinkies drew their game against Ferrymead Bays 0-0.  Well done lads.

Joe, Sarah (cousins from the US) & Ella (Neice) turn up for a visit as they are on a ski holiday and passing through Christchurch on their way South.  Have a good catch up then we all head to Pam & Karls for dinner.  Jenny & Greg are there too.  Have a lovely dinner and chat.  Head home as boys shattered.  Sit down then to do the blog while watching a movie.

Milo time then bed as shattered too.  Hope all have had a great day/night/arvo.

Kia Kaha.