3 Too Many

Day 6 of 23 treatment free.

“It may be that my sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others” – Anonymous

Still not brilliant as the pain in the head is still very much there – guess this is part of what happens when you have these mofo’s of this size in your skull – and the Chemo treatment is making them swell up more.  So a restless sleep again, and get up at 4:30am to take pain killers and wait for them to ease the pain.  Login to work to sort out Web Editions (online papers) and read some news too.  Also start on the blog as easy to write the first couple of hours and also it tends to be when the most ‘stuff’ just falls from my head to the keyboard.

The mental and emotional blackness seems to be starting to lift a bit.  It could be because of the drugs I’m on since getting out of hospital or just that I have moved into a new phase of where this journey is taking me & us. If this is the new routine then so be it – I will have to watch the kick back that occurs in the week after I finish the Chemo to avoid getting admitted to hospital.  After all there is only 8 more treatments to go – easy peasey!  The positive of it is that I have now dropped nearly 7.5kgs since the start of this Chemo treatment.  I’ll be back to my old size in no time at all.  Got to try to see positives in what is going on.  Regardless how tough the treatment gets I have to do it and will do it.  It is not a time to give up or back down. When one family member is ill, all of the family is ill so I will fight on.

House comes alive with the others all getting up.  Jacob comes down and says he is not feeling well.  Then goes back upstairs and promptly throws up!  Thankfully into the toilet.  Back to bed for him.  I was considering heading into the office but guess I’ll stay put with Jacob.  Probably also a good idea as the pain is starting to come back a bit. Quiet morning at home for the boys – Jacob on the couch trying not to throw up – me at the computer trying not to throw up too – different reasons though.  If I see another bloody SpongeBob program I swear I will throw up though.

We head to Hoon Hay Road to take back some belongings and keep airing the house out & cleaning.  2 hours there wears me out   Crapping out to quickly really!  Yet another thing that I guess is now part of these bloody things!!  Back home then for an early dinner and then relax, finish blog and try to get to bed early as these late nights and early awakenings are going to take their toll on me. They have upped my steroids on Saturday so the brain is in hyper mode again. Actually that’s what’s probably helped pull me up emotionally – good thinking that man!  Jacob has bounced back – ahh the health of the youth and our one chuck wonder lad.  It’s enough to make you sick really

Hope all have had a great and enjoyable day/arvo/evening where ever you are. Be happy and safe.

Kia Kaha.