3 Too Many

Treatment Round 2 – Set 1 – Day 3 – Chemo only.

 5:45 start again – standard for when I am on Chemo. Sort out the drugs and head then take the first of the morning.  Not in a good place mentally and feeling very frustrated and wound up.  Decide to get on the spin bike before taking the Chemo drug else won’t be feeling like it then.  Manage to churn out 7kms so happy with that.  Probably burnt all the energy for the day too – bugger it Dose up on the rest of the drugs and wait for the crappiness to begin.  Spend the day feeling sick and with a headache – just like old days of an all day hangover – just induced by a different method.  Lachie appears about 7:30ish and we watch a movie together. 

I won’t gloss it over – I am doing this round of Chemo harder already than the 6 weeks of the combined Radiation/Chemo treatment.  I have a constant thumping headache which flares at times to intense migraine type pain.  Today’s nauseous feelings were at a new high too.  Didn’t feel like eating for most of the day.  Inside, mentally, I am struggling a bit with plunging from the high of feeling so good and ‘normal’ to 3 days into this.  I know that there is only 2 days to go but this just sucks!  If this is what 3 days is like then doing this till Feb next year is going to be a real challenge – just need to get my head in the right space again to take this on.  I am more than capable of it, but just need me time to sort it out – if you like I need to line my ducks all up in a row so my plan of attack is clear.  Enough dribble – basically I’m not set well in my mind for this so just putting it out there.

On with the day – feeling crappy and all. Beautiful day outside, need to escape the 4 walls of the cell.  We head off to Hoon Hay Road to check out the progress and pick up some more clothes.  Looking like the house will be completed this week, so we will then have the move back to arrange.  On then to Hornby to the mall to get some basics then off to get Jacob from Brad’s place.  Have a coffee & a chat with Judy & Paul before heading homeward. 

Cook up the meat pack, that I won at footy, for dinner. Then try to get the blog done, but sorry, the  brain was not in the right head space and was hurting too much to be able too. Watch a movie on tv then head to bed as shattered.

So, short and sweet and boring really.  Trust all had or are having a good Sunday.  Take care – catch you on the flip side.

Kia Kaha.