3 Too Many

Day 1 of 28 Treatment Free!!  Nice to write that!!!  No Radiation or Chemo.

Seems kind of funny having that as the starting line.  I don’t really know how I am meant to be physically or mentally at this point in everything – but treatment wise – battle round 1 down!!  I think back to how many medical staff last week commented how well I had done through it all – so I guess that I can take comfort in that.  The only thing I wish I could change was that I could drop the steroids all together (though I will be off them in 2 weeks time for 2 weeks) and also off the other fuzzy and seizure drugs – these make you feel fuzzy 3 times a day – yipee NOT!! 

On with the day anyway. Celebrated a restless sleep (bloody pain) and no more treatment with a sleep in – until 7am.  Wahoo – an hour extra sleep.  Not sure if it is good as it means that the day is now a rush where previously I was well ahead of things and ready to go early.  Planning on going into the gym in the morning so back to the early starts – may as well try to shed some of this weight while I can.  And don’t say don’t worry about it – I now have an extra 17kg to lose again!  Rush round like, well, a “Headless Chook” (hence the nickname Headless that I have).  odd not having to watch the clock for drug timing more for OMG – I have to be at work now.  Jono is picking me up at 8:30 so thankfully I have some time to have brekky.

Get in the office and settle in to work – have I said how awesome it is to be working back in an office building with space and warmth, and light and – bets of all – quiet.  No constant traffic off John’s Road.  I guess even when town is open again – some time – 5 floors up it will be fairly quiet still.  Cruisy day at work, and Karen Slee drops me home about 2:30 as I’m fading and also the boys are going to be home about 3 and Sue has to work all day.

The boys are little troopers and get on and help out around the house with chores.  Then do their homework and chill out a bit.  I get tea ready – thanks Roh for the yummy Pumpkin soup.  Sit down then to get the blog done  – sorry it’s going to be short and sweet today pretty much as it is just really another day.  Actually that’s a bit of a talking point I had with someone over the weekend.(sorry it may just get a wee bit longer).  The question of how I am dealing with the fate I am facing, and if I treat each day as a special one, and if I have a bucket list.  The short answers to these are, dealing with it – I have thought about my faith and it is no different to anyone elses really, just mine is going to be a bit sooner than most of the people I know, but I also had time alone to think & accept what is happening, & what do I have to be angry or sad about – it won’t change whats happened.  I can only be positive & work positively towards staying around as long as possible for everyone including myself.  I am a firm believer in the power of positive thought.  As for treating each day as a special one – well isn’t everyday meant to be special even if you don’t have a timer on your life (and no I don’t know how long I have  – which in a way makes it easier to deal with too I think).  While going to work and doing things like that are routine, they are also special as it is the people and things you do.  Always do something nice for someone each day – even just ask someone how their day is or smile and say thank you – it costs nothing and may be the only time that day someone takes an interest in them but it does make a difference.  As for bucket list – I don’t think so – unless I can add driving, drinking and footy!!  Hangon  – right order needs to be drive to footy then have a drink after to celebrate – there all done in one day!! 

Enough waffle – things to get on with and an early night as an early start in the morning if I’m intending to hit the gym.  M&D time still about 10 then bed.

Hope you all have had or are having a good day/arvo/evening – keep safe and be happy.  Remember, be polite and smile at someone as that smile will come back to you

Kia Kaha.