3 Too Many

T Day = 11 (Adjuvant chemoradiation) – 21 Radiation & 31 Chemo to go this round.

Another fantastic sleep and waking refreshed – long may this continue! Not sure what it is – the resting during the day, or the knowing that I’ve got to rest to get the maximum benefit from the treatment or it could be the decrease in steroids.  The brain is actually shutting down – well of sorts. Will explain in a second.  Still have the waking in tears for no reason moments – which fascinates the hell out of me cause I realise what is happening yet there is no emotion or feeling attached to the action  the body is performing.  So it makes me wonder what deep in my subconscious is triggering this – what feeling, emotion or the like is bringing on such a flood – I’m not talking a trickle here its the eyes are pouring out.  All very strange  – might do a bit of side research into it actually as intriguing.

Heading into the new building again today – it is very handy having it so close.  They just need to install a bed for me to crash at when I’m tired   Jono collects me and we meet Bernard in there.   Busy morning – but feeling great still – I’m liking this feeling!  Actually feeling calmer and more settled within myself – which mentally is making me more relaxed – so I’m starting to find a new inner me island – scary!!!  Off to treatment – the radiation robot in my treatment room is fixed so back to normal surroundings but a different team and they have to take a CT SCan today – which takes a little longer. They use a different neck brace to normal which I think is higher it certainly doesn’t feel the same anyway, and th mask is very, very tight today.  Grit my teeth through it and manage to keep breathing with out panicking.  Though at the end I feel very uncomfortable a and wornout.. The 8:50 fry up was now at 2:30 – bit of a mare for the logistics of kids home from school, me hospital, etc, but it’s done.  Home then for  a nap as I do find that within and hour or 2 of the zapping it is starting to drain me.

Quiet evening – arvo all round – nice way to wind out the day.  Do some house work – cook tea.  Have  a quick chat to the lovely Jo Knudsen & get a call from an inspirational man – David Will – whom is also battling cancer. It is nice to talk to someone else whom is facing a similar journey.

All in all folks a short and sweet day – much hopefully like our Thursdays too. Blogged early too – how efficient! Grief I might go to bed early and aim to get 7-8 or even 9 hours sleep – may as well try to set new sleep records seen as I’ve been told too.  M&D time.

Have an awesome evening/day/arvo all.

Kia Kaha.