3 Too Many

Well here we are – typical last minute Edmonds – leave the blogs for a day and you get behind. I know news has to be fresh and now – I work in Media remember.

Wake at 5am – when i say wake- not awake gently and go hello world – more right brain on – GO! It is just processing so much – well stuff!! Eyes are wet so obviously I either a) got maced in the night b) I poured water in them when I was asleep for an unknown reason or c) random tears have filled my dreams and buggered if i know what/why – that is the most frustrating thing of all. – not know why you cry in your sleep.  OK quick roll call of body to check it’s not pain related – head – normal, legs achy but normal Sunday feel – right wrist – ouch – but good ouch pain – deep tissue injury, not broken of cracked – can fix that!  Must be due to dreaming of something deep.  Oh well – awake so go downstairs to do a bit of research on Chemo drug as tat is the biggest thing on my need to know more of now.

Great in depth reading – it is quite amazing what these drugs do to you – yes they’re toxic as hell but they mutilate you’re whole DNA structure which causes the Tumors to react as they can’t keep growing with different DNA blocks – hence also why your immune system goes to hell too.  Fascinating reading too – says a recommend dose would be 6 weeks with a lower dose than I’m getting, with Radiation, then a month off, then 4 x 28 day cycles of the drug again – great I’m getting the first bit except high dose straight away, then 1 month off then 6 months straight of chemo!  This is going to be some real fun!!!  Had enough of digesting all this info. MIght go back to bed as can’ hit gym cause it will wake other in the house.  Lay there thinking of the week ahead – as 8 days now till Treatment day starts – it is 8 weeks since they found them (5 weeks since we found out they’re terminal).  I hate waiting but understand why, and this doesn’t help.  Have Aaron here Monday / Tuesday, then my neurologist appointment on Wed night. Possibly a potacom and colleagues outing to Foodsing on Thursday, boys footy on Saturday – so yes I am bookmarking life at the moment as I need to o I can get up to 7 May!  Doze off for about an hour – again – yay more rest.

Up then into gym – bloody wrist is hurting still! Need some weights – legs and cardio got a workout yesterday. Jane & John head off to see John’s relies, we’re going to visit Nick & Anna 7 catch up quickly.  Nevil & Rose, an everyone meeting back here for  a mass grazing session before flights depart and car leave for Northern vineyards.  Guess that’s a hint then to get my butt into the shower instead of working out – no chance – still manage to get in 30 mins in the gym.  Day has turned into a warm sunny stunner – what is with this awesome weather – and they reckon it’s going to turn nasty!

Nick looking remarkably good considering they had the roof shout for their house extensions last night – good effort!  Back to home – lunch I delicious (notice that i am oddly starting to eat more vegetables/salad WTF!!) – If this is tumor induced then it is the cruelest trick ever!

Nevil & rose pack Jane & John into car and whisk them to the airport before they continue on to Renwick. Sue, Hannah & I head off to the Re:StTart mall in Cashel Street for a look-see round – have been there before but never really take a lot of notice of some of the shops. Grab a coffee and admire the demo skyline – nowhere else in the world can boast this view!!

Back home then for dinner before Hannah leaves for Pukekohe.  Try to keep Hannah as a Maths tutor for Jacob – patients of a Saint! If I try to do the maths with him it usually ends in Jacob or I in tears!

Boys to be before 7pm – Lachlan sets a new awake to sleep record of about 2 mins – he was so shattered he bearly could stand straight.  Jacob in bed early too – though try to scare the tumors out of me by sneaking downstairs an hour later and grabbing me – really I don’t need a heart issue as well!! 

That’s about it folks – I am stuffed and was having an early night – but it is now 10:40! Just had M&D time so off to bed.  Sleep well all – till tomorrow!

Kia Kaha.