3 Too Many

Well who would’ve thought that Saturdays start at 1:20am with a head full of philosophical thinking about this whole saga?  Things like:-

– if I was 1 of 50 in the world to get it then I will be first of 50 to survive the longest.

– if the main battle has is about to begin then I guess really my first skirmish is underway with the tumor affecting my left hand & leg – I am having a daily fight with controlling these properly – importantly I’m slowly winning.

– Why am I finding it easy to talk about it all? – I guess it is cause I have had time to run the different scenarios through my head & there is one defining morning that I had where you could say I faced the reality of my own mortality.   We all share this event in common but we don’t know how it will come about & hope it is as peaceful as going to sleep one night.

– Cancer let alone Brain tumors are never words that I thought of nor wanted to hear. So why am I now dealing with this & why so rare a cancer to have? What is it that I am to give back for been given it?  Or am I a firm believer in things happen for a reason and there are lessons we all learn from these happenings? Or is it just fate that has dictated this?  I still haven’t thought this through properly?  But will.

Dozed back to sleep thankfully until 5am went back to sleep then till 8am best of all didn’t wake with head pain yay for steroids!! Up & into Gym for a session  Went really well so happy  

First visit of the day from Sean – Jacobs schoolmate Callum’s Dad – sorry Sean if I shocked you with the news – I’ve got to learn to be more tactful really.  As I’ve said previously – I’m still learning some of this myself.

Then got a visit from my younger sister Sarah this morning with my nephew Jayden & Mother.  It was Fantastic to see them all especially Sarah as it has been 2 long years since we saw each other last.

Off to Halswell to watch my old team the newly named Halswell Pinkies  play Western Whom won the Division last year so a big match first up.  The lads did us proud and went 1- nil up late in the first half thanks  to a beautifully struck left foot curling shot by Fridge – still reckon they opposition were dazzled by the bright orange boots though ;-). Unfortunately Western equalised with about 10 to go with a shot deflected off Mouses right cheek (and not the facial one). So a 1 all draw & 1 point to start the season.

Managed to hang down the club until about 6:30 before tiredness kicked in. Oh and the guilt of starting the season by winning a meat pack in the raffle – yeah right!.  Was great to catch up with so many people there today. 

Quiet evening – Crusaders win – fantastic!! 

Got to take my night drugs soon so Milo , drugs & bed and a read of the Lance Armstrong book – It’s not about the Bike – recipe for a good sleep (esp. the reading as usually out cold in 2 pages) The sleep will be to at least  probably 2am anyway.

Night folks.

Kia kaha